believing in something .

looking back

2010-04-11T15:51:00.000+08:00

just like you

2010-03-27T21:15:00.000+08:00

TOO busy to blog.
will blog when i'm free (:

btw, allison iraheta rocks!
go listen to her album.

animal.

2010-03-19T15:00:00.000+08:00

i think i'm liking purple (:
anyway, i'm currently all the way at penang having fun and eating (of course) as well as totally neglecting my holiday hw at home :P
what a good girl. i am.

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out .

meet me halfway

2010-03-07T22:44:00.000+08:00

HELLO!

i'm in a good mood. who wouldn't be?

as EXAMS ARE OVER!!
form 4's 1st monthly officially ended 2 days ago.

it's definately a relief that it's over but well, the papers are mostly terrible. as in you really dont know what you write. maybe not for anyone but i really miss lower secondary exams where you always have too much time during the paper unlike form4 where you crave for extra time .

account was the very first paper and it didnt start off well. the kunci kira kira was bad.
bm and english were hard esp. english, i don't understand the comprehension passage and i really dont know how to answer the 20 marks questions.
chemistry, biology and physic were ok.
moral's essay isn't so friendly to me. can't blame me, it's my first time writing a moral essay.
maths was ok.
sejarah and add maths were killers. no comment at all about them.

but i can't do anything now, so we'll just wait for the results and pray hard
---------------

life feels so good after exam. so chilled (: but school's back tmr.

got to sleep early.
out.

echo

2010-02-17T17:05:00.000+08:00

HEY :D

well, CNY is not really coming to an end yet, but school's holiday is.
so potong rite?! all the wake-up-early routine is so starting again, starting tomorrow.
but chinese new year this year was damn GREAT, at least for me, the best part is definately the school-off days which make life less stress for me cause i havent even been having enough sleep since school reopened, not even weekends.i think i barely had 6 hours? or 5? i did sleep but i just couldn't help feeling tired the whole day and with all my unfinished homeworks(its still not done today) and all the lessons.
talking about lessons, nothing much is really registering in my head. from chemistry to moral =.=

i feel so utterly lost in my own school, more to the subjects actually. to the lessons.

now, looking at my whole stack of undone work and my nails, i should offline right now and remove my nail polish and finish up my work BUT i'm just too lazy to move.

and i want to change my hairstyle(quite desperately), its so long ago since i'm having this boring hairstyle but i dont have any idea how to.

help me think?

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out.

today was a fairy tale.

2010-02-15T15:32:00.000+08:00

yo people!

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!

MAY OUR TIGER YEAR RAWR!!

and have a prosperous cny

and get lots of angpau!

and

a late

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!

i rate 7/10.

what about you?

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out.

getting really busy during newyear (:

thts the whole point rite?

once is ok.

2010-02-08T20:38:00.000+08:00

hey ;D

feeling pretty good now, and decided to upload pictures and blog BUT there's smth wrong with my cam, i just cant connect it to my pc.

so pissing off.

i know i havent been blogging at all. the actual thing is i didnt even get to come online(not as often), for some reasons, my whole desk is freaking full and i cant seem to finish my homeworks.
how can anyone say form 4 is honeymoon?! i dont feel it at all :\ not even one bit.

anyway, CNY is coming but we only have 6 days off, damn.

---
busy.

for your entertainment.

2010-01-31T22:11:00.000+08:00

time does flies,

tmr would be the first day of february, pretty fast rite?
its alrd 5th week of school (:

try sleeping with a broken heart.

2010-01-21T18:22:00.000+08:00

i have the very sudden urge to blog today. its not hw-less day but i just somehow don't feel like doing them now, its only 5.37 pm.
now its already 6 something and i'm feeling nervous or the audition tomorrow. and i haven't do any home work. karangan and account. so many! and i've already wasted one hour.
i better start working.
form 4 is so different from form 3, SO MUCH work.

*cross fingers.(i'm nervouss)

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out.

semiformal

2010-01-16T13:11:00.001+08:00

wow, its 2 weeks since i last sat here and blog. losing total contact with the blog alrd. maybe i should so shut it down.
should i? (i know i should)
no, i'm privating it. its all not-sure-yet.
well, after 2 weeks of school, i've come to a big conclusion - form 4 is so-not honeymoon year.
idk why but my hw is never ending and there's like so many things to do and i've no idea what i'm stressing about. but i can say i'm loving 4 G (: its a good class, everyone is pretty great. except there is a lot of work. *sighh.
btw, i'm (obviously) diff class with lots of the ex-classmates who had made pmr year a boom :/ hoping i would have a better one in spm. saying spm feels so weird. like i'm still a junior in school. but ya, when you're diff class, you lose contact a lot with them, like you've been out of their life. but we still see each other :) not tht bad after all.
and for this whole new year, sports and all are starting again. pe tht day was terrible. feeling terribly unfit. still wasnt very back on school days. wake up early is definately hell.

i want to go there someday.

its preetty.

CNY is coming soon!

finish shopping?!

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out.

ps: i miss the girls.

pps: meiyin, i want to have pe with you.

knocking on your door.

2010-01-04T18:21:00.000+08:00

just a small cartoon pic of school,

the place where i've been since early in the morning till now.
first day of school is just normal with chitchatings among friends and all the excitment of a new school year.
how i wish today could be like that too.
but it turns out all unplan and everything.
sigh. four words ;
i'm not quite happy.

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out.

i got my head and heart on the dance floor.

2010-01-03T21:23:00.000+08:00

so big news,
its tomorrow!!

exited?

i dont really feel that way but still pretty ok since its a while since i remember sitting in the classroom doing my own work while teachers are teaching pretty seriously in front of the class.
since i promise to be a better girl this year, i would not do such things anymore and skipping class is just outo the question. and my resolutions : i'm not gonna screw any of the subjects. not anymore. even history which i'm really bad at.

so its back-to-school day tomorrow, well, i cant prepare much, cause its not like i have text books to pack. so i'll go to school with a big empty bag. how ironic?!

i just dont feel like there is a big event happening tmr. as in i mean its just a while since school's off.
and the bad part is getting up early and get the whole study table unorganised for a year again and no more lazy-ing days.

i dont feel good to continue blogging. my lips hurts T___T will perhaps blog after the first day of school.

still absolutely drooling.

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out.

bingo

2010-01-03T14:36:00.000+08:00

will blog ltr .

one more day,

till school.

are you excited?

i want your love.

2009-12-30T14:01:00.003+08:00

something is constantly playing in my head, appearing again and again. the same old pictures, the same old cliche story and the same feeling rushes up again. i thought i've left it long ago. but no, its there with me, like it always is and i doubt it'll be totally gone, no matter how hard i try to think is gone for sure or at least real over this time.

i'm not proud with myself in this year at all. not just academic wise, even in everything i do. i knew i've dissapointed lots and lots of people who expect so much more out of me. i knew i've let them down. especially myself. it feels like i wasnt proud anymore whenever i look into the mirror early in the morning. and it makes me always try my best to look away from the awful mirror. i just dont want to see the reflection that i'm not craving for. i just dont want to see the face of tht girl i'm not proud of.

2 more days and i feel like i could start a new life. why everyone in the world gets a second chance but not me?! why cant i get one? i'm sure i'll benifit and use it wisely.
i dont know what the future holds. i dont know what it'll bring me, but i'm sure i'm not the same old self and i really want to be better and do better things.

maybe its really time to say farewell to the old victoria who is lazy, selfish, unwise, immature and totally rubbish and a big warm welcome to the new one.

2009 is over.stop looking back. just look into the future where everything starts again.

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out.

ps: i'm real looking forward for 2010.

according to you.

2009-12-29T18:43:00.001+08:00

is your christmas this magical?

well, i remember my previous post was a day before christmas, and well, it did somehow affected my christmas but still i had a pretty good one despite being a little moddy early in the morning. everything went off pretty well with family *love except i didnt receive anything from santa :/

maybe he misses my house accidently. but at least i did sleep well. i thought i would've wake up with dark circles around my eyes. haha.

and christmas night itself, i attended a wedding with family again @ grand dorsett. i'm still more used to calling it sheraton. lol. The dinner was pretty great, the bride was real cute .ahaha. she's shorter and smaller in size than me. even her sisters are adorable.

since christmas with santa is over. whats next?

NEW YEAR !

2010 is in 3 days time.

and school in 6 days.

so since 2009 is coming to an end i guess i need to look back and see what good deeds(i bet not more than 10) and not-so-good ones i've done. it just reminded me about all the ~~bad memories.~~ But I've got to admit that 2009 is(soon to be was :/ ) one of the best year. even with all the pmr and studies and exams. form 3 was indeed a great year especially being in 3 Beta! its like a family somehow. all the little imperfections of every unique betarians make it a perfect awesome class : ) life's entertaining with all of you even its a day before pmr. i think i'll miss it next year.

so whats the other big events in this year other than PMR?

one thing for sure : i've learnt a lot this year.

second, the best part : i knew who were true friends.

third : i learnt to be much tougher than i used to be.

specially to my best friend, shirey :

I know you're emo and i'm sorry i couldnt go there and cheer you up and i know your laptop isnt with you BUT look what i've got :)

i really had the urge to get a real poster and send it to you!

but still sorry.

but think on the good/touching side, I'm not a fan of the above but I'm willing to post their pic here, okay?!

just hope you're feeling better.

i know i owe you a LONGG talk.

when was the last time i posted my own pics?

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out.

wordless.

2009-12-24T14:48:00.001+08:00

ok. it might turn out very long and stupid and meaningless but i just need to let it out!

i dont know what i'm feeling. happy? obviously no. sad? not really? i couldnt find any word or phrase to describe what i am feeling now. its totally plain. like there is nothing else in the world or smth. haih.
mind me .

@$#&^!%^$&^!%!^!*!&^!(&!*!(*!&s^!@#!@#!^#@^!

i just want to feel better. i thought i was ok but maybe i'm not. i dont know what i'll end up doing. its pretty stupid cause i neglected my blog for weeks and the return post was such a idiotic one.

i really want to feel better but i cant. i want to talk to someone abt what i feel, but i just dont know what i'm feeling and its frustrating. it really is.

~~i'm just tired of who i am. sometimes i just hope that i'm just a different person. not who i am.~~

anyway,

BIG CONGRATES to those who got the results that they want

and

ITS OK (: just work harder to those that arent that satisfied.

at least its really over now,
waiting is torturing and whatever it is life has to go on.
but i swear i'll live a better one from now on,
I'll be good, and i'll do GREAT stuffs and help unfortunate ones
and I'll change for the better, of course and
i guess now i really know WHAT i want in my life
and i'll get it someday; soon?

---
out.

ps: thx to meiyin, shir and kat. you girls are great! love ya (:
see? i'm smiling.

trying.

2009-12-12T17:34:00.000+08:00

finally BACK! ;D
haha. i miss m'sia food and the wether. even tho winter is pretty cool and windy/chilly. i miss the heat somehow. haha. even tho there is sun but its really cold when you're bathing. HAHA
and i miss nasi lemak and those msia specialities ;)
the spicy-ness.

but there is something pretty funny that happen at the airport when i'm at the airport.
guess what?

the luggages disappears, including mine and my mum's = =
it got mixed up with the transit bags. wonder wht will happen if it go to germany or pinang = =
omg. then i'll lost all my shoes and all T___T

btw, hol's gonna end soon .
quite a good thing but results are coming. sighh.
and i'm still pretty busy. 3 relatives are getting married, which means 3 dinner. 3 dress o.o and one of them the dress code is cheongsam. o.O
i dont feel like going.
and christmas is SOON!

and i gtg for dinner now ;)

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out.

coffee.

2009-11-28T14:18:00.001+08:00

*drools.

i really wanna watch T__T

its alrd showing in msia but just too bad cause i'm not there. its ok to watch over here but i'll have to wait till dec 4 :\

so effin LONGG! i really look forward to it more than twilight. really.

sighhh. i really wanna watch. taylorlautner. aww ;D HAHA . i felt damn obsessed. i can acutually watch online BUT i dont wanna spoil it xD

will blog after i watch/back ;D ohh and i wanna watch 2010 too.

---

out.

ps:my buddy is coming back ;D

pps: counting down ;)

everywhere

2009-11-23T16:51:00.003+08:00

omg. my blog is like dying. ;/
will definately blog when i'm bck

i miss everyone TT.

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out.its cold.

instinct.

2009-11-11T10:38:00.000+08:00

3 more days!
to KLIA. haha.
yeahh, i'm exited! how can i not be rite? havent seen my relatives for a year already. and i miss the food and imma going to enjoy life/shop/spa and the wether. its not that chilly but colder than here.
at first mum said we're flying on tues =.= and i told carissa that i cant make it to the cooking competition :/ sorry. and meiyin ;/ but still after comfirming that the flight is on sat, i wasnt encourage to go to school either.
been nagged abt the rising h1n1 cases.. and so.. i just have to take care of myself.
but i felt so far and distant from everyone, everyone in school. T_T

grr.

i've got to eat lunch and pack my luggage .

---
out.

ps: i wanna watch newmoon!

whole new thing.

2009-11-07T18:11:00.000+08:00

victoriatan is back!
finally. 3 days felt so long.
HAHA.

short:
anyway, penang is awesome! and well, the bigger point is , i get to spend lots time with my cousins (:
very good thing. it just made the whole trip wonderful. i feel like after so many years of being cousins, i never really talk so much with them! lol
its only half year ago when i first went to penang so everything still seems familliar! haha. but the only thing i really missed now is the food!! ;( omg.
i havent unpack my luggage and i need to pack another one -_-
i'm tired already. will update soon! but i didnt take a lot pics tho .

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out.

already gone.

2009-11-04T20:03:00.000+08:00

taylor lautner <3

effin hott!!

outside my house is like raining right now and i keep realising i had nth to do. nth at all. which makes me feel so sick and bored and damn hell bored = =
at the same time, i feel so lazy to blog but since i'm dead bored. why not?! i just cant find anything better to do and i'm feeling lifeless =.= and i hate to feel that way.
i honestly feel a lilttle obsessed here cause i really wanna watch newmoon right now!! guess why?!
no particular reason, just for watching taylorlautner. xD seriously, his abs *drools. HAHA too bad he isnt available.

anyway, i skip school and i might be leaving for taiwan earlier so i dont even know if i have another chance to go to school and meet up with the girls ? ;\
tmr, i'll be going to penang with grandma and relatives, so yeah.
i'll only be back on sat which means i cant make it to nic's house. oh well, i always have bad timing and all. or else, i'll have major transport prob.

after all the boring days, now all the hectic travelling comes.
i havent even pack my luggage . T_T i feel so lazy. i was thinking of going for artclass like twice in a week?!
i really need to finish the tshirts before i left for taiwan .
the worst part : i'm having a bad lip day. o.O very bad one.

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out.

backstabber

2009-10-28T19:29:00.002+08:00

current mood : better than awesome!

so i went to school for two days straight. i nearly couldnt wake up today but i made it after all (:

and big news :
my best sexy buddy, shirley is back from taiwan. HAHA after seeing her fahrenheit.

babe, i bet you had a super good time rite? ;) cant wait to see you tmr.
you owe me a big big hug. and make sure you see all the msgs i sent to your phone and i have lots to catch up with you ya, ;D

well, today in school, acryclic painting goes on as usual. but morning, kat and me decided to just sit at the canteen and watch our class play footsal and listen to ipod. many funny/hilarious moments tho. LOL
then we painted after that. ohh, and its the second painting. the first was done but i'm lazy to upload the pic today, so tmr ya. or the next post. or you can walk to the artroom and see it hanging there ;) *proud

then later, we watched film which turned out to be drag me to hell. but i was practically looking away from the screen so yeah. but i still think i cant really sleep tonight T__T

anyway, i got to go for my dinner.

---

tuning into : Tik Tok - Keisha

she wolf .

2009-10-22T21:20:00.000+08:00

feeling down. real down.

i dont know why and how and whatever reason it is.

i just feel overwhelmed with all my emotion. i was pretty ok in school today even after the whole drama. *ahem. you ppl who're there knows it and those that aren't, i just don't feel like saying a word more about it. i'll just leave it all there. story stops here.

and actually there is another reason behind my emo-ness. but i'll just keep it private. i just don't feel like telling the whole world about it. but the thing is, i couldnt find anyone/the right person to throw all my these emo probs to. i just feel totally helpless and yeah, helpless.

anyway, i wont emo for long. i promise myself. i really don't like to be emo. and i hated being emo too. and sobbing. but i cry easily. even before pmr and all. even movies and reading.

naah, but i feel better now. after all the typing. so yeah ;D

strange stupid feelings.

before i forget.

the host.

the cover clearly still scares me but i really like the book.

like , like like like it.

its nice exclude the front a little draggy part.

its nice but also sad.

and i havent finish, i just dont want it to end. (:

but if compared to twilight ;\

i dont know how to choose. its just different.

and i dont know how to say how its nice but if you read, you'll know.

definately.

strongly recommanded to read!!

gotta cont it. xD

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out.

*support pink. prevent breast cancer!

i can transform

2009-10-19T16:55:00.000+08:00

yo! people xD

feeling super great even at this boring time in the heaty afternoon.
i'm happy. really happy ;D
thehost is good. seriuosly. i like it better now.
i dont know whts wrong with me now o.O my sentence are all short, like in words of 3/4/5 o.O

anyway, school is tmr.
i'm not so excited.
i'm lazy to go to school instead. =.=
but i'll go. to see my friends and yeah have a chat? since we havent really talk for so long since pmr.

i need to eat now. AGAIN.
lol.
will updaet probably ltr.

---
eating.

the tenth thousand time

2009-10-17T20:20:00.000+08:00

feeling really exhausted.

(: grandma's at my place .

since yday.
so dad drove her to kl, ampang and all.

in one day, we stopped at 4 aunt's place. really. all i know is i keep eating. i ate twice yong tau fu.

like at 11 and 3 and i feel like eating smth right now o.O damn!! all my meal's time are so out of order!! t__t

i break so many of my rules today.

i ate all kinds of fried stuff. so much oil . i wasnt suppose to eat. GRR!! i should've so stop myself. but i didnt!!

and i'm regretting now!!

shir, help me!! :/

and now i think tmr i'll be teman-ing her around again. anywhere she wanna go.

*be a good good granddaughter xD

and i really have to eat now.

ohh and

HAPPY DEEPAVALI :D

to anyone celebrating!!

even i doubt anyone celebrating will read my blog. HAHA

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out.

p.s : support PINK!

Hot Mess

2009-10-14T20:32:00.000+08:00

i'm gonna do smth to my hair.
but what?

i like them.

i'll so wear! who wouldn't rite?

**
what exactly is your definition of wild?

thick fake lashes + matt red lips + overall thick make up, hotsexy slutty and steps in her sexy hot heels and short exposing dress and step into the club and party all night and drink and dance like a sexxy bitch among the crowd(guys)?
the typical wildness?

does stepping in club and party and looking hot means bad wild?

isnt tht a lil nt fair?
why do we always have some set impress abt some things/others?

what would we feel if ppl, without actually knowing us places all kinds of set impression on us?

i dont think anyone will like it.

just a couple of thoughts. ignore if you like.
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

well, i went for a lil book hunt today.

but books are so typical.
-sex and city type

-typical highschool

-london duke & lady

-teen books

-dark magic/visions

-gg (obviously prefer show ;D)

-vampire.

so its like idk where to choose.

so..

i bought

the host.

i think it is nice but after reading a lil , i feel scared T__T how?

i dont mind reading but keeping the book (cover). *sob! i think i'll wrap it. SERIOUSLY .

or i just read and keep it in the rack.

but i really dont want to read alone.

i regrett T_______T

but to be honest.

the fact is - it is good. but it plays with your mind. really.

i'll just read to kill time and not waste money (:

hopefully it is less scary as it goes on. more romance or anything.

over all its fiction rite? SOMEONE PLS TELL ME *YES*

why are souls more creepy than vampires?

because of bill and edward?

maybe they're just the same? fiction?

i'll have to remind myself tht.

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out.

ps: should i cont reading?!

pps: support pink!

beautiful.

2009-10-13T16:29:00.000+08:00

be proud of who you are.
never let anyone tell you, you aint beautiful.

something BIG.
yes, few hours later but still.

PMR IS FINALLY OVER!!

NO MORE TEARS ,

NO MORE LATE NIGHT STUDYING.

NO MORE STRESS.

NOW THERE'S ONLY FUN, FREEDOM, and WILD.

but i'm sure gonna miss it some how. rite?

and yess, there just so many things to tell. but actually i'm nt as excited as i suppose i'll be. anyway, pmr is over and so was my bday. kinda sad. didnt even get to eat a cake ;\
my bday is always near exam so yeah. esp big big exams.
but shir, you promise gonna celebrate with me rite rite?? (: HAHA.
i promise will use your gift (:
we wear 'em together ya. lol.
there's so many things to talk to you abt. i wanna talk SO MUCH!!
and there's even more (:

ohh. and yes before i forget, yday was
carissa's 15th bday,
HAPPY BELATED BDAY!!
darl, will get you your present next tues, you've been a real good friend. through all those drama and all *ahem . you always know wht i mean rite? really. thx for being a GREAT friend ;D

more stories but i need to go for dinner. oh, and THINK PINK.
oct is all abt the colour - pink.
ppl, spread the news/annual event.
prevent breast cancer.
its the 2nd biggest killer for women in m'sia.
to show your support, wear a PINK stuff everyday!!
pink ribbon? even BETTER!!
or go to some brand tht participate too!!
so show your suppost ;D

sexy, better keep your promises! it'll work. hope your tummy is getting better ;) HAHA

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out.

ps; i'm hungry.

Cinderella

2009-09-17T17:56:00.000+08:00

my table is like this RIGHT NOW.
havent touch my comp for real since after TRIAL.
*proud.
but now its only 19 days left. O.o
DAMN.
i just couldnt stop stressing myself.
i need fresh air!!
---
i'm gonna rest for today i guess,
too much stress makes me headache and when i study sej, practically nth register in my mind at all ;/

anyway had a sej ceramah today which i thought was good. i think it kind of more or less help me in my sej (: so i wouldnt screw it anymore. i really dont wanna screw any in PMR.
* cross fingers.
and got damn many papers/worksheets for the weekend plus tmr is hol.

and i'm eating a lot lately, like seriously. can feel the fatness.LOL. gotta double exercise during the raya hol. and and

to ppl who celebrate:

SELAMAT HARI RAYA ADILFITRI (:

have a good one.

---
out.
dinner time (:

19 days. I want to shop.

beautiful nightmare.

2009-09-04T21:15:00.000+08:00

the most beautiful yet dangerous one.
the sleepless night,
the thoughts,
everything.
the nightmare.
i'm so off it now.

my proper post i consider (:
finally get the touch of keyboard.
miss typing on it.
miss blogging.
i miss everything ;D

well, TRIALS are over.
i dont think i wanna ever repeat tht,
i SCREWED mostly all the subs.
but the hell worst paper is the freaking sej.
i freaking tembak-ed whole half/more than half of the paper.
T_T
its nt tht i didnt put in effort to study.
i DID.
but sej is just so not my sub.
i just dont understand.
maths and science are screwed too.
terrible paper one and two.
i literally stoned at the paper and my mind just went BLANK.
enough of stress and trial.
but pmr's still nt over.
---

well, havent been paying much attention to the surrounding due to trials.
so nth much i guess (:
i need to burn fats tho!
havent been exercising since trials.
gt stuck in front of table with stack of books on it.
grr..
gotta burn the fats, seriously!

somehow, i thought of a few things to do after pmr.
-late night party, entertainment, music with alcohol plus fashion. in addition to dance. you know whts tht (:
-shop till i drop.
-pick up a modern dance class.
-latin class too.
wht else?
-sleepover at buddy's.
-outing with the girls (:
i have more in my mind right now, just too lazy and puzzled to list down.

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out.

i know you want me.

2009-08-22T11:40:00.000+08:00

one two three four,
uno dos tres cuatro.

my blog's very dead, i assume. real dead.

too busy. studying?

anyway, school had another comfirmed case o.O

so i skipped school again yday.

and hol's starting. yuen would be at penang. ash at kpg too? happy puasa-ing (:

and trial's in 10 days TT

PMR's soon too.

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off.

fifteen

2009-08-16T12:16:00.001+08:00

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off.

alone

2009-08-12T14:13:00.000+08:00

new hair cut.

well, had been racing with time now ==
seriously time's running out.
as far as i noticed and at least for me.
wht i need now is the freaking TIME!!
PMR in less than 60 days.

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out.

Tan Shirley

2009-08-07T13:30:00.000+08:00

07/08/2009

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BUDDY!!
you're alrd 15.
hope you'll always stay who you are ;D

there's just so much to say abt you but where to start?
i'll tell you face to face! haha (:

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off.

Nur Ashiqa ;D

2009-08-06T21:08:00.000+08:00

the purple post.
to the special girl on her BIG BIG day.

a year ago.
sorry. barely a pic of you and me ):

anyway, a shoutout to the dearest,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NUR ASHIQA.

YOU'RE OFFICIALLY 15.

-may all your WISHES come true.
*brows ;D
-may you stay healthy, young and pretty forever (:
-may your day stay the BEST.
-lastly, enjoy your BIG BIG DAY.

and i cut/trim/layer my hair, its softer and i love it.

will blog more abt it and my days tmr since i'm skipping school. lol

ps: you know wht day is tmr? (:

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off.

paparazzi

2009-08-04T14:30:00.000+08:00

black nails are still sexy, but wht colour should i paint mine?

maroon/red?

well, i skipped school AGAIN.
pretty bored actually .
cant find anything much to do at home :(
but apparently school's WORSE. haha.
so should i go tmr?!
i just cant really make up my mind abt going-to-school.

i miss going out/shopping.
it feels like i havent gone out frm the house like for AGES!!
T__T
staying at home - kills.
i do go out a lil here & there but i really wanna go out!!
like for the whole day ;D
HAHA.
and shop and eat ;)
i'm missing food.
need a scoup of icecream and colddrink.
feeling heaty now.
and i just realise i had hw to do.
but i'm nt doing anything.

*sigh.

i'm feeling a lil lost due to the weaher right now.

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off (:

thats not my name

2009-08-03T16:13:00.000+08:00

today's monday.
the day i'm suppose to be in school.
but well, i skipped school.
most of my friends did anyway.

been at home?
i tried to STUDY.
as usual it only worked out like 50%
=.=

anyway, should i go to school tmr??

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off.

fashion.

2009-08-02T21:47:00.000+08:00

i've always have some special likings towards apples.

sounds like somekind of stupid obseession :/

i'm trying/learning to let go EVERYTHING.
learnt frm yokeshan (: , my niece. haha
you made me feel better :D

anyway, i'm really skipping school tmr.
mum's worried so seh wouldnt allow me to go.
plus many ppl are sick/fever.
dk if its just paranoid or REAL.
but its really getting SERIOUS anyhow :/

too much talking, cant blog ;D

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off.

us.

2009-08-01T14:14:00.000+08:00

random.

so i guess, everyone knows rite?

abt skl and the confirmed h1n1 case?

well,

IMPORTANT NOTICE – PLEASE READ CAREFULLY

Dear Parents and Guardians,
H1NI Virus – First Confirmed Case at Sri Kuala Lumpur Secondary School
On Friday 31st July 2009, a student of Sri KL Secondary School was confirmed as having the H1N1 virus. This student is now quarantined at Sunway Medical Centre.

As such, the School wishes to inform all parents and students of Pre-School, Primary School and Secondary School of the following procedures that shall be effective from Monday 3rd August 2009.

• ALL STUDENTS of Classes 3 Lambda and 3 Alpha are to remain quarantined at home for 7 days from 03/08/09 until 09/08/09 and can only return to school on 10/08/09. No students from these classes are allowed to attend school for any reason during this period.

• ALL SIBLINGS of students in these classes are also to remain quarantined at home for 7 days from 03/08/09 until 09/08/09 09 and can only return to school on 10/08/09. This includes siblings in Pre-school and Primary School.

• Quarantined students who display any flu-like symptoms during this time should immediately seek medical advice.

• All other classes in Secondary School will remain open and students may attend school until further notice.

• Pre-school and Primary School will remain open and students may attend school until further notice.

• ALL STUDENTS of Pre-school, Primary School and Secondary are now required to wear facemasks whilst in school until further notice. Students must bring their own facemasks to

school and students who refuse to wear facemasks will be sent home.

• Students experiencing any flu-like symptoms should seek medical advice and remain at home until given the all-clear to attend school by a medical practitioner.

• Homework for quarantined students will be made available via the Sri KL website and students are requested to complete their assignments in a timely and responsible manner.
The School has informed the Ministry of Education and the Health Ministry of the situation and will update parents as and when there are any new developments.Your close cooperation is much appreciated.

THE BOARD OF MANAGEMENT, SRI KUALA LUMPUR.01/08/09

*frm yokeshan's.

**sigh.

why isit so unfair? i mean this yr,

we're already stressing abt PMR and yet h1n1 hit our school :/

school:

batik frm tues.

just too tired/lazy to do anything .

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off.

love drunk

2009-07-31T21:11:00.000+08:00

friday.

will update.

sabotaj.

2009-07-25T21:40:00.000+08:00

another shot. (:

i know, yday's post was like.. 2 lines ONLY.

pretty busy/ tired.

so should i talk abt the 3 Beta family tree?

well, the mind map should so be scanned and posted up,

but i dont have it.

anyway, its just our family.

pics are in fb. haha.

and comments are overflowing.

even the notifications keep on adding every minute, now mine inbox are like so full ==

about the week.
it wasnt so pleasent for me.

why?

results .

seriously.

i can feel like the week is so emo + sad + miresable .

and yes, i'm damn hell dissapointed.

i know, i didnt do tht well.

but seriously, its like the WOST marks in my exam life.

and idk how, how?

i've been tearing for like the whole shyt week :/

i know, i have to start doing smth abt it,

but the thing is -- i cant.

i am not capable of doing anything to fix it.

i felt helpless, yes, because so many things distracted me.

too many , too much for me to handle.

for me to take/fix it.

maybe, or i shall say,

i MUST start studying now.

like really study.

pmr is just 70+ days.

sigh.

i should stop all these emo/sighness .

i can do nth abt the results.

except STUDY.

and i 'm gonna do so.

we're locked outside.its effin hot.

yes, season 2 -tues (:

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signing off.

"tonight i’m weak,it’s just another day without youthat I can’t sleep,i gave the world away for you to hear me say,don’t throw me away,there’s no way out, i gotta hold you somehow."

i'm taking back my love

2009-07-24T22:25:00.000+08:00

the big big family (:

will update soon :D

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signing off.

waking up in vegas

2009-07-19T14:22:00.000+08:00

2nd day after exam.
freedoom.
just back frm lunch.
decided to sit in front of the pc and took the initiative to blog.

i'm actually feeling very good after exam.
but tmr, results.
yes, results are coming o.O
and i dont think its very good instead.
cause i dont think i did well,
and its stressful facing the results.
at least for me, yess.

and i havent finish my caligraphy/cut nails/remove nailpolish/facial.
so many things to do before school tmr.
and i've only left a lil hours to do so o.O

stomach cramp is still bothering me TT

btw, there are things tht i MUST buy,
well, very in need.
haha.

a headband. for home use? lol

heels.

liquid eyeliner

mascara.
another need : a pair of those eyes.

so tht you realises my existence.

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signing off.

school's tmr, again.

:DD

secondchance.

2009-07-18T21:41:00.000+08:00

close up.

well, form 3s :DD
our 2nd mthly is OVER . haha
but 80 ++ days to pmr? or lesser?
i didnt even bother to count.
i'm seriously gonna so relax this few days.
i'm like so over-stressed for this 4 days of monthy test.
and i dont think i did well too :
at first i thought bm was bad,
ltr chn was like- i totally lost 12 marks cause idk how to even write/fill in the stupid words :(
and today sej was .. screw the sub part.
i totally forgotten abt tht getah man. the henry fellow.

anyway, cut the crap abt my exam.
3 Beta exchged class with 1Beta.
actually it wasnt so bad. exclude the stairs and the neighbours.
one of our neighbours keep complaining abt our class's girls.
and the way they said it was damn wth and pissing off.
---
so overall everything was very OK i guess?
except i'm having stomach cramp the whole day, even during mths and sej paper. damn kesian.haha
its damn distracting :(

and now i having this weird feeling.
its like during exam, i was so tempted to online,
but now, sitting in front of my comp, without anything bothering me,
i just dont feel so anymore.
sigh.

anyway might be going out tmr (:
gonna shop till i drop.
owh and sry meiyinn..
T.T i know, i was suppose to go out with you . sorry.
its so long since we last talk rite?
cause we dont sit together for kh anymore o.O

and now, i'm real tired after the whole exam thing
and lack of sleep.

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signing off.

will update real soon (:

blood on the dance floor.

2009-07-10T21:12:00.000+08:00

instead of fire burning, is blood better?

well, i know, i havent really update.
was pretty busy and lazy.
anyway, another school week just past.
time's really flying right.
i bet the next moment would be pmr :/

before pmr, 2nd mthly for f3 is next wednesday o.O
superr near and guess wht , i REALLY havent study.
the past few dasy was busy finishing the book tht i borrowed frm shir,
and she actually brought another to tempt me today.
storybooks are tempting.
if only school books can be as well, i'll face no falling-asleep moments while studying.
but bck to the topic,i know i really need to STUDY!
esp sc.. its like everything is coming out!!
but i cant freaking study.
if i can, i wouldnt be sitting here now.

anyway, today i was prank-ed by calvin ppl.
i feel stupid.
but eugene was worst,
and actually almost everyone kind of believe exclude the ones who are doing all these.
but seriously witht the working cctv in the library,
it seemed so REAL.if nt only because my name was spelled wrongly.
i would seriously fall for tht prank!!
still, feeling supid.lol
bt well, its kinda FUN.

we had our fire drill on tues (:
the whole sec took 7 mins to assemble instead of 3.so we missed p.e.and car missed the fire drill since she's nt feeling well.

wed, i dont exactly rmb anything. owh.had coco.leo.so yeah.

thurs,chged for p.e but didnt manage to do anything. except pics agian. hanged out with meiyin and kat. owh, and we baked. but no pics cause the cake didnt really kembang. failure. lol

today - above pranking case and mr tan spoke to us.

pics:

i feel happy. carefree. haha

so pretty.

haha.

i love this pic!!

haha.

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signing off.

memoirs of an imperfect angel

2009-07-03T21:38:00.000+08:00

okies, its friday again.
i've missed art class again :
pretty many reasons.
well, jogoya : i didnt make it. *sigh * sigh.

anyway, i promised tht i wont have another emo post so yeah (:
i'll make sure the sky is lightened up once again .
and i've gt a feeling tht everything is in GOOD condition now.
esp after baking on thurs.
in sc lab xD
everyone was talking..

rmb kat?
our convers?
the most interesting topic ever? lol..
i couldnt stop laughing when i thougt of it.

btw, i know my blog's kinda lack of proper update.
i wanted to post one today but now it seems like i couldnt make it.
gtg.. will update as soon as possible(:

love it!

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signing off.

obsessed

2009-06-27T22:01:00.000+08:00

if i own them? :DD

yuen, i'm nt emo.

i'm very happy instead (:

anyway, just pics today.

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signing off.

i've got a feeling tonight.

2009-06-26T20:58:00.000+08:00

totally loving it.

pe moments (:

hey, so H1N1 is getting worst huh?
terpaksa wear mask like everyday?
nt really but lots ppl around me are sick - teachers & ppl who sits near me in class.
omg and kat says maybe we're just paranoid. o.O
well, kinda true.
just cross finger tht H1N1 wont struck m'sia anymore and the world too (:

anyway, school's really pretty usual now.
but 2nd monthly test for f3 is real NEAR.
and wht else can i say?
i'm feeling plain STRESS.
and ltr they told me tht PMR is ard 100 days away T_T
how?
honestly, i still dont feel the atmosphere or wht so ever abt PMR
but i'm SCARED :/

other than tht,
school's been great i guess.
with somekind and somewht stuffs going on.
i dont exactly feel good tho.

but shir (:
smth i promised you:
maybe some ppl will be thinking i'm doing these for fakes and wtv,
and using ppl,
i mean wtv they think- it aint important at all.
and shir i just want you to know (:
thx a lot yeah, for everything,
for all the retardedness and frm
HUGS to TEARS to non-stop-laughing moments.
seriously, it makes school life such a memorable and GREAT one.
and i know we click super well rite?
:D and really, you listen to everything i says, everything i complain, you had been the best shoulder to throw probs too!! (: haha. adn we're rude to each other.lol
and your advices and everything, and i'm sry for somesort of stuffs if i ever did wrong.
and now, i cant go on cause i know,
i could just cry like how i did just now (:
really thx lots and yes, as long as we know, it doesnt matters rite?
and rmb i owe you .
and lets bake properly :D

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more pics.

pics frm kat:

well, i'm tired.

frm shir's phone.

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signing off.

the fabulous side.

2009-06-20T21:16:00.000+08:00

yes, today is the day.

so i went proudly, and yes, i managed to talk lots with ash,

but i just cant really consider it as really a lot,

as thinking bck to sports season - the amount of words we shared were just countless and far too much to count but those conversations just couldnt be really forgotten even after some time, right ash?

well, just some shouout to shir.

*TAN shirley, looks like you're addicted to tht garden inter school hot dude, rite?

tht you can actually left your buddy without saying goodbye, huh? *angry face* jk.

i know you werent tht kind of GIRL.

anyway, i havent been talking much to you ): the girl tht never ever camwhore and the worst thing, her own phone dont even have her camwhore pics but somehow mine can be found.

it shows we're close (:

the exact fact - i took her phone and camwhore :D

and rmb, you promise tht you'll learn to!!

i suddenly feel so far away frm certain ppl :(

will try to keep in touch with them.

anyway:

so cute.

i am really craving for a class like this now, salsa, latin :\

i want, i just couldnt wait for after pmr.. its like so long.

and i effin need a modern dance class too!

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signing off.

Guilty Pleasure.

2009-06-19T20:57:00.000+08:00

i'm in the middle again. wtv o.O
well, this week is slightly hectic i guess.
at least i gt to be involve in SMTH.
or to be more specific - out of class.
missing lessons is just the best part of school.
i'm being seriously very lazy nowadays :/
anyway after smth wtv talk and idk how, we gt to go and see the elocution on tues so yeah. good thing.cause before tht some teacher was like saying she only chooses classes tht can BEHAVE and so our class wasnt chosen.

thurs was somehow speech day rehearsal.
stucked in the hall for nearly the whole day.
if i didnt go bck
i might probaly fall asleep there.
its so bored :/ and my stomach aches terribly.
seriously, i mean you DO get to talk a lot but still, you get tired and walking up stage again and agian o.O
and some very 'smart teacher' came up with the idea to kepit the prize at the hand there.
and guess wht, ashiqa was like totally complaining (:
i'm so on her side xD
owh, and talking abt her, she actually bought the skl badge which is 2 bucks each. O.O
damn surprising. and she gave one to me.thx girl (:

anyway today we have some sort of speechday (yes,again) briefing.
so i ended up going tmr (:
**being proud. haha.

meiyin. the girl tht i miss talking to :/

my design.

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signing off.

ps: tmr i cant sleep late :(

make a girl happy.

2009-06-13T21:08:00.000+08:00

i miss long nails.
so nt feel like cutting my nails now.
but its seems like it wont be approve in school
which is just 2 more days.

*well, shir, i am SO NOT emo (:

somehow, i've learnt to be MUCH MUCH STRONGER.
and yes, i managed to do so and i will cont to be this way.
if its last times, i might be a total emo trying to put a PLASTIC smile on my face,
but now,
i can seriously smile frm my heart.
all 'those' means nth.
how can all these make my day awful rite?!

anyway i am currently
online-shopping.

i havent do this in quiet a while.
well, just checking out new stuffs/dress
and guess wht!! 5 ft 3 and BELOW is counted as petite!!
): i wanna freaking grow taller.. above 5ft 3 mann..
haih.. but at least petite kind of dresses and all are nice too.
and they have their unique-ness.
**i'm sorry if i indirectly/directly insulted ppl tht arent satisfied with their height.
(i'm nt using tht word)
actually it isnt so bad.
petite/tall has its benifit & are all pretty/nice in their own ways.
but personally or to be more accurate - me
or just to say,
i myself just wanna grow taller (:
no insult- seriously.
so yeah. sry if i did give an bad/nt so good thingy.
i'm just saying wht i think.
the most important thing-
ppl, love your body/height right now!
just love yourself/how you are
being healthy is the most important rite?

enough, cont with the latest new in clothes.
i spot this Dorothy Perkins Petite belted jersey dress.
its so effin nice T_T
i want!!

sry, its small. see?

(: i reall like it.

next i saw,
Grey one shoulder check dress

frm Dorothy Perkins too.

click
just click.

next is, Colour block bandeau top
frm there too.

next, i think i am just listing everything down.

heels.

and a Joni Smocked Tunic-Dress frm juicy..
its so cute!!
here.

next,blugirl spring summer 2009 nt bad.
i had a feeling this collection for all brands are kinda nice and ok.

anyway thts all so far.

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signing off.

we made you.

2009-06-12T21:13:00.000+08:00

well, i am nt sleepy.
but *sigh sigh sigh.
i'm suppose to find some wtv tht has to do with sej kk
but i'm here tping where i'm nt suppose to.
`nvm, will do the research ltr.

i'm scared.
i cant finish my hw,
well, sc is still hanging.
and my kh, i havent do/cut tht paper!!
i think most ppl finished cause its like so looong ago o.O
so i'm definately gotta rush like mad tmr & sun

but i wanna GO OUT!!

but i'm used to do things(hw) lst minute.

anyway, school is in 2 days?
excited? not?
(:

btw, watched ANTM yday.
omg . the way they pose for the phtoshoot.
effin sexy!!
esp the man magazine. its like total sexxy-seductive-ness.
all of them.

the models.
and the pictures.

natasha.
i like her (:

brittany. she's damn photogenic.

Jaslene

renee

i finished.

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signing off.

my one and only thrill

2009-06-10T21:39:00.000+08:00

hey!!
so i'm here (: blogging.
so its like few more days to school rite?
and it means
RESULTS!!
omg :/ i'm scared.
anyway cut these worries out first.

currently been very/super addicted to
kristinia debarge - goodbye
its seriously damn BOOM + ADDICTIVE!!
i'm like totally into tht song since i first hear it and now,
i cant stop listening to it
and kristinia debarge (btw,i love her name)
she can freaking sing!!
i am like damn jealous of her voice!!
its like, her voice make tht song damn boom!!
even the lyrics is good!
but the best part is her voice + the beats.
i've played this song freaking 37216487 times today!!
omg. and she's quite pretty/hot too!

and she's only 19!!

now listening to her 'Gotta be love'

and 'make a girl happy' and 'chance'
its just another BOOM!

i think i like her song more and more now!!

they're all addictive!

even her?

no doubt,

she's pretty (:

and i just became her fan :D

anyway, bck to the school-result thing
i'm like stressing mysef with it

and.. i havent finish ANY of my hw ):

laziness.

it looks artistic.lol

and emo.

the blur cheese noodles pics for shirley(:

she is like damn effin interested in it! haha

i think i onlined too long

so gtg

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signing off.

Always keep your picture in my bag

Always looking at that photograph

It's crazy, I don't usually act like that

Guess I must be in love

Sometimes I wanna call when I know you're not home

Just to hear your voice and your sexy little tone

What you do to me boy, you don't even know

your eyes dont lie.

2009-06-07T21:01:00.000+08:00

bck frm pulau ketam.
exhausted but still in a typing/talking mood.
i took so long to post up the pics.
anyway, i reach the port at around 9 am then waited super long for the boat.
so we got into one air-conditioned boat with the price of 7 bucks per person-one way.
idk if its expensive?

but the worst part was
- going off frm the shore to the boat.
it moved like effin shitty!!!
omg i was like helding on my friend!!!
she was like damn scared too XD
but its not her first time so yeah,
BETTER THN ME.
but i did manage to go on the boat (:
but feeling super embarass!! for acting like some jakun o.o
but first time -new so forgiveable.

the when we reached p.ketam.
i was damn shocked!!!!
its like we have to walk to the front part of the boat and walk to the shore.
and the shore is made frm wood!!
which is somehow like gt holes.
i was damn terribly shaken!!
but thank god i managed to cross.
overall it wasnt dizzy,
except the speedboat we sat when we came bck..
i nearly vomit but yeah i didnt.

waiting

the shore!! effin scary for me.

toilet.

well, actually i went for this foodfair thingy where i helped!!

its nice.

with all the traditional food!!

i ate SO MUCH!

preparation-our stall

finished

food!

but ours was TEA.

chn tea.

the pro

everyone.

helping

and there is this school there

which was

BUILT ON THE SEA.

damn cool rite?!

corridor

the school

their nasi lemak- damn nice!

me helping!

spot tht poser!

leaving.

so overall it was a nice day.

and nice experience helping + serving!

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signing off.

`Cant let the music stop,

Cant let this feeling end.

back to the start.

2009-06-06T21:54:00.000+08:00

i feel so uber tired.
and i gt no idea why i still had the strength to blog here.
anyway,
i got stuck frm 7.30 am to 7.30 pm in the pyramid convention centre.
effin long
and its damn cold.
i was like wearing my jacket but still shivering!!
its super cold
and because of sitting for so long,
my leg is effin pain now :/

really really pain..
the muscle ach-ness pain.
and worst, tmr i need to go p.ketam o.O
omg :(
but kinda excited to get on ferry/boat?

btw, i am really tired now.
so yeah gtg sleep .
i really cant cont. blogging.
tmr gotta wake up early somemore.

tired.

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signing off.

` i feel empty. like smth is missing o.O

burning up my mind

2009-06-05T21:07:00.000+08:00

so one week of holiday is like gonna over.
honestly it wasnt tht slow.
but one more week!
*i miss my friends.
one week already seemed so long.
how am i suppose to go through my yr-end-hols?
where i cant see them for like 1mth+
:(
shirley, lets hope we get to go taiwan together !
and yes, you would get to see your wuzun there (:
GREAT plan rite?
haha.

but like we say, it sounded so IMPOSSIBLE.
but we'll make it possible (:
*lame

anyway, tmr & sunday will be damn pack for me,
well, tmr i gotta go pyramid convention centre for some idk function.
sun, i will go p.ketam (:
apparently there's this food thing going on. perhaps some fair so parents gtg so i'll just follow .
and guess wht?!

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i never went on ships/ferry/boats before
o.O i'm very serius.

so it'll be my first time. hope i wont faint or wtv (:
but still, i'm already having some dilemma for it.
maybe not so bad. just wht ppl call - fear.
btw, i do look forward for it.

anyway, i went for art class today after like 3 weeks i touch nth abt art.
but its ok la.
i rmb once when i stopped art for 3 mths and when i went bck.
I COULDNT PAINT PROPERLY.
i couldnt even hold tht brush properly
and everything i painted look awful.
everything is like out of the line!!!
its damn terrible.
but stopping dance doesnt make things tht hard when you go bck for classes rite?
why?

bck to my art, so i cont my paintings which was neglected for approximately
one month.

during work.

some lil girl there was like saying "omg! she(me) used all colours."

i was like o.O

then

another girl was like "omg, how can."

then my face turned into =.='
damn swt and funny, they're just damn straight forward and adorable!

other than tht;

there's this well, older girl, but younger than me asking this std 5 boy.

"wht does f*** mean?"

i just couldnt stop laughing cause the boy say smth which doesnt make sense at all.

and with her courage she went and ask my art teacher.

"wht is f***"

then my teacher was like explaining "just bad words-dont say it."

then tht smart boy came up with smth i consider 'very smart'

"eh, you walk up to some western ppl and say f*** and see wht they do to you."
i was practically laughing while painting ,

thx to their convers.

but i managed to paint properly.

its still hanging,

gotta cont, nxt class.

---

signing off.

-chating with yuen wei teng (i'm right-the spelling)

who's happily enjoying in tanjung jara and thinking abt her leehom? lol (:

-one more thing;

`i'm really over it :D

one of the boys.

2009-06-04T10:54:00.000+08:00

* i am so not suppose to be online at thsi hour.

but well, since shirley never comes online , so i had to teman her and talk,
but wht i get is just tons of lectures. *like wht is happening now.

anyway, i started to feel bored abt hol.

will really have a proper post ltr.

---
signing off.

no promises

2009-06-02T21:03:00.000+08:00

*i cant see my eyes.

hey ppl (:

honestly i wasnt in a long post mood.

somehow, i am suffering frm some little hol sickness?

such things?

anyway, life nowadays was in a kinda rushing mood.

i better start my sej kk mann..

*i havent do any hw/work tht i was suppose to.

but honestly i'm damn lost .

mayeb i need to meet up with shirley (:

and get car's kerja kursus and of course meeting up includes all the talkings/chattings.

i started to miss all my friends ady :/

and you.

anyway i didnt really want to come online

but just wanna check smth (:

but i guess i already knew the ans.

:D 'trying quite hard to place a smile on my face'

trying to look smart and hardworking (:

---

signing off.

*there are so many things i wanna say, but i just dont know where to start.

again

2009-06-01T20:20:00.000+08:00

in a typing mood i guess,
well better than yday.
mostly pics are in fc book cause damn lazy to upload everything
but thx to fcbkless shir, i had to post some of them,
those tht i found in my camera + comp.

well, i know its like so late to talk abt it
but still, everyone looks hot + glamorous + super dress up.
and its nice to see everyone so diff frm in school (:

wht more can i say?
food was ok but i dint really eat as we're bust talking + picture hunting and all.
and another best part i guess is dance floor!
but i dint get to dance like until v late as i got to go early
and thx a lot to katie and her brandonchew for temaning me down.
i seriously had no guts to go down alone.
and and sry car and yoke shan and others, i left without saying a proper bye :/

and one thing, i think charity dinner is just beyond words,
i really dk wht to really say cause if you're there , you'll know.
its just nice (:

anyway pics for shirley (:

well, holiday still has 2 more weeks.

long, huh?

---

signing off.

Charity Dinner '09

2009-05-31T21:00:00.000+08:00

well, Charity Dinner was yday.

and its honestly damn nice.

well, i am lazy to type much now. just pics(:

well, thts all and i am feeling lazy :\

---

signing off.

i shall say.. its over.

2009-05-29T21:32:00.000+08:00

well, i look happy. dont i?
i really am :D
so 2009 mid year is finally over.
omg i s like i feel damn STRESS FREE now!!

honestly i had been super hell stress the last week.
i couldnt breathe properly!!
i'm seriously like choked to death,
haihh.. but the most stress ppl is always SHIRLEY.
she is so stress until she make me like thousand times more stress
and everyone around will turn even more stress!! right ash? car? got shir-stress virus?
but i bet i get most of it sinec i spend so much time with her.
and her fav. phrases..
'"how la?"
"i did badly (abt exam)"
"i cant rmb anything!"
"F*** you!" well this bad phrase is mostly used on me ONLY.
how sad but i'm used to it, at least i had to (:
if nt i can die spending EVERYDAY with her
but anyway, TAN SHIRLEY (note: we have the same sir name.) you rocks!!
i'm gonna miss this retarded-lame lady during this 2 weeks holiday :/

well, nt only her. everyone!!
all my friends!!
and meiyin!!! i WILL go to your house XD
i bet you will welcome me rite?
*perassan

anyway i guess this hol wil feel long..seriously gotta miss my awesome friends.
BUT at least can meet some of them tmr (:
charity dinner!
**i'm getting more and more excited.
right car?
haha.lol

anyway pics frm before exam:

usual camwhore spot! toilet.

---

signing off.

i'm excited. charity dinner is tmr.

mixed feelings.

2009-05-24T13:25:00.000+08:00

aww, momories.

i do miss them.

do you? :/

omg, i have no idea why am i here now!!
i'm suppose to be studying..
geo, moral , comp is just TMR!!
i'm just feeling plain stress now.

and chn paper 2 and bm 1 sucks!!
screw the tatabahasa :(

---
signing off.
geo-ing.

call me your sugar

2009-05-16T20:39:00.000+08:00

the different one.

so i sat here, in front of my comp, with my sej kerja kursus, eng oral topics. But obviously the attention i paid to my comp and the work are 80:20. i can never do my work properly with comp on! well, i guess you ppl understand how hard it is to resists computer!!

anyway currently i had a bigger prob,

mayeb nt so big.

i dk how to do the freaking speech!! first, idk wht topic to choose, second, idk how to start, third, idk wht point to take!!! omg and nt forgetting tht my sej kk is seriously halfway hanging badly!!

so i couldnt make a proper post like i wanted to so maybe next week or after exam?

exam is real soon!!

----

signing off.

little miss obsessive

2009-05-09T20:37:00.000+08:00

past shall remain memories ?

omg!

nvm lets start this post properly.

well, i just say i should study or at least try

but it seems like i am not putting any effort on it.

any exam are like really soon!

even the timetable is OUT!

how? maybe i should really try to do smth.

anyway, i had my art exam(part1) on tuesday.

ok so idk wht to say, i am nt trying to make it smth so big but seriuosly i do care!

i chosed to use CRAYON. dont ask me why.

idk.. its like at somepoint i should be using PAINT like i always did?

and when i hear tht she say CAN SHADE,

i wanted to so badly but i guess idk i just ended up didnt.

I USED CRAYON.
so its like i cant be using somehow shading/pencil now rite?

obviously it cant be half-half.

so how?

i guess i just continue with crayon + paint.

haih but its like the last painting rite?

no more after this!

i mean art is over :/

anyway enough of the artness.

well some pics i found.

wangleehomyuenweiting

(: the BEST name.
turning perasan like ashiqa XD

well, we helped out for charts for open day!

done by the above names :D

one of them.

the camera shy one.

other groups!

see tht?

closer : a heart-shape cloud!!

how awesome to see it!

and i managed to (:

---

signing off.

blame it!

2009-05-02T20:43:00.000+08:00

* my heart is damn pain right now..
seeing you appearing in HER photo..
this feeling sucks!

anyway this is LIFE plus tht is PAST,
or maybe i try to classify it under, at least,
i try.
and somehow, i do appear in ppl's photo too.
anyway, LIFE still needs to go on no matter wht happens!

and. this week.
do i need to repeat this in my every post?
my school life.
before anything.
i had smth pretty important to say.
so i just read yokeshan's blog.
and abt her highschool drama post.
i will say i totally agree with her.
i mean honestly if you read it.
and think over abt it.
abt your highschool,
even if its past or like me , still in this stage,
i bet you would find it damn TRUE.

honestly, i mean it cant be denied tht life is equal to drama at times,
especially HIGHSCHOOL.
its nt like i watched too many highschool series but its just the truth,
infact, the fact
tht highschool is drama.
but i do believe tht once you leave school,
you're gonna miss it!
so why dont we just enjoy it now?
rather than regretting ltr on rite?
but it doesnt mean wht i say is right either.
the choice is always yours.
so, ppl.. live your life the way you want it (:

enough abt those dramas.
even tho i say i am nt gonna say much abt my daily routine which never chg.
i am proud to say i stayed in class more often now :D
and it means tht i am being a super good girl XD
*self-praising*
lol.
BUT smth very very (x10) serius happen.
okay, i think i am being a lil too much.
but for me its kinda serius.
its like few stuffs which linked and causing IT to be smth very big.
smth tht bothers me a lot.
honestly, i am worried. very worried.
but still i try to belief tht all this shyt can be over,
be settled as soon as possible.

i'm nt letting it to distract my studies & whtsoever.
and not forgetting tht exam is REAL SOON!
and i am scared BUT i am nt doing anything T_T
how?!

---
signing off.
: nervous & terribly shaken
and part of me is bleeding.
infact terribly.

you.

2009-04-26T20:29:00.000+08:00

some pics ages ago which

i stoled frm joc.

sry..but yeah..she looks pretty rite?

okay, both of them are..

and i suddenly rmb ash saying 'cannot 3 ppl take pics together!'

i'm serius!

how? o.O
i dont think anything really bad is gonna happen rite?
plus can see a few ppl shadowy at the bck so its nt only three.

so it so okay.

anyway i shall stop being damn lame here with this talk.

so school this week again was usual.

as in usual hectic, busy, 'pontengs' , dramas.
wht wlse can i use to describe my current school life?
its just typical high school-ish
but nt too drama like gossip girl

but i believe very soon, it might be.

i'm SERIOUS!

right shir?!

but this week school has smth more --sports.

but i feel freaking useless.

doing nth there while ppl busy practising cheer, march past

and i mean at least they had smth,

some event IN sports!!!

and i am like nth!!!

but anyway i am really gonna join cheer next year (:

really gonna go audition properly.

nt just to run away frm field and play a fool there.

and hope i can get in!

anyway this week during last two periods

and fri the whole day.

i was totally OUT frm class.

i even went for two breaks on friday.

bad girl rite?

but in class also nth!

its like only less than 10 ppl

doing nth at all

stoning at teacher!!

whts the point staying in rite?

no lessons.

other than those out-of-class incident,

lst thurs was sports rehearsal.

and it was kinda fun+funny with ash ppl (:

the 3000 m race was damn nice to see!!

damn kan cheong and yeah i really wonder how they run,

i mean its 7+ rounds!!!

one round aslo like damn tiring!!

but still, they're just meant for it i guess!

btw, pics taken tht day!

she's so gonna kill me if she sees this!!

omg! imagine her reading my blog during comp lesson,

she's sure gonna fly towards the other side of comp room where i sit

and scold me like shyt!!!

but still ash, you really look happy here (:

at least the smile is real!

so loving!

nicholas's super amazing drawing!!!!

the artist!!!

owh ya!!

happy belated bday eugene!

thts all i rmb so far (:

the latest painting!! damn incomplete!

it looks like some city night life at the back!

---

signing off.

ps: it hurts a lot.

looking at you --- knowing.. my chance is zero?

2009-04-25T20:34:00.000+08:00

honestly i am feeling emo now.
but i just try to put on a smile
which looks super fake
but thts the only thing i am capable of now.

anyway, today was sports day.
and yeah everything went fine.
overall champion was yellow.
but i dint get any pics cause i forget to bring my camera.
but there are some with joc (:
and they are damn funny!
but super camera shy shir just wouldnt want to be in any pic.
like it will kill her XD

but anyway its kinda nice.

but i gtg now,

i am effin tired will update tmr or soon (:

---

signing off.

ps: everytime i look at you,
being surrounded by hot girls,
tears just feel like rolling down
cause knowing tht my chance is like damn zero.
and knowing tht truth kills my heart
and the stupiedest thing is tht i cant forget this suckyness
this stupid feeling i had towards you.
the worst thing is --- you dont even care rite?

the first time i really look at you.

2009-04-18T20:48:00.000+08:00

big news: cross country was today; this morning.
and being proud cause i ran this yr!
i am being sporty kay!
so everything was ok i guess..
i ran with meiyin cause she just somehow manage to make me run without suffering frm lack of breath!
thx and sry for making you get 96!
but she made me get 100.lol
i know its nt very good but anyway, the number isnt bad rite?
i bet she could get much better if she didnt wait for me!
but joc had a bad tummy ache halfway..but still she managed to qualify (:
and shir who keep on complaining abt she cant run..managed to qualify too ;D
lol.. and you know whts the omg thing she did during the run?
she texted me during the run.lol
i was like wth o.O when i received it
and obviously been a bad runner who 's in such terible state wont bother reading it so i throw my phone to meiyin..
and she was also giving the wth look.lol
and angelina got 37!!! if nt mistaken. damn fast!

sporty joc! she got 124.

obviously runner ash..haha.

she qualified with 80+ and she tell me tht she scared tht she dint qualify and she say she gt 90+. damn ROFL!

she dk how to read the position card.lol

anyway we had our coco on lst wed:

the canteen

meiyin

some idk when pics but i just found them:

shir

shir is a paul frank fans!

camera shy shir.

abt the art class girl who has super nice hair..

she cut her hair!!

i was like damn wth!!

everyone was like asking her why you cut!!

so short!

the little artist

his drawing

my woodwork (:

its finally done!

---

signing off.

you're just my type

2009-04-10T14:40:00.000+08:00

again, one week passed.
this week again was usual i guess?
nth much tho.
maybe my life is just pure bored + no excitement?
but honestly,
thts nt the case at all!
my life is full with ups and downs and
surprising stuffs which just somehow appear o.O
but i dont think anyonme is interested in knowing them rite?
so shall i just briefly talk abt some more 'diff' story (:

monday, i dont rmb anything exiting happen other than
my stupid woodwork.
its really killing me mann.
anyway with my kind friends' help,
i think its gonna be ok :D

tuesday, i ponteng like quite a lot lessons.
not exactly the whole lesson but part of them.
*feeling super guilty now :/
*sry! teachers!!
but i had plenty good excuses.
well, more to resonable + truthful ones.
wanna know them?
i am listing anyway =.= *swt

1. joc had a pretty bad tummy ache
--so being a good friend, me, shir, ash teman-ed her to ask for tht tummy medicine frm mdm.boey. then obviously gotta apply it in the toilet rite?
so we took kinda long thinking abt how to apply it =.=
then smarty shir just press the tube and it came out so much on joc's hand.
and being a saving girl.
she put everything.
but obviously we dont know the conciquences yet.
--so we went bck to class. its sc tho.,
told mr. liew tht we are super sorry for being late..
then..
the interesting/laughing part came.
the class smelled smth kinda (nt horrible) just medicine smell.
so obviously our reaction = laughing non stop.
then the worst part came..
joc say her tummy feels damn hot!!
haha..as in the heaty way..
the shir say her hand or smth too cause she put a lil on her smth.
then i couldnt stop laughing
and the worst part the smell
plus being caught by teacher for laughing non stop during the whole lesson.
i really couldnt help it.
and obviously the whole class join in the laughters.
and it just couldnt stop. seriuosly until my healthy tummy ache too.lol

2. ltr in the afternoon
moral, i guess.
joc wanted tht medicine again.
so well, a good excuse to go out.
went around walking and talking.lol
and we reach the staffroom to ask for it.
and so co-incidently some teacher ask us to go and get the drama results.
so i got to know the result (:
and i am happy cause i had a reason to care .
and the best part abt this.
i met you.
anyway ltr we met this kind-hearted techer.
who taught us how to use the medicine properly so tht is nt too strong/hot.
=.= should had met her earlier .

wednesday. well. cross country trial.
-- mostly runners dont bother to run. but they obviously wouldnt have any trouble on the real day as they always have the stamina + confident knowing tht they can run on the real day.
but for unstable ppl like me, i chose to run.
so at first we plan to stay together ash,kat,shir,car.me (joc wasnt there-she came at 10.30)
but obviously it didnt work. the together thing.haha cause we had diff speed.
i rmb tht i couldnt caught up their speed so i temaned shir but ltr i ran a lil further,
shir ask me to leave her.. so i met angelina and chuwen..
then we walk and talk. haha.and we exchanged secrets and angelina was damn shock to know them. then i dont rmb seeing chuwen..
but ltr at some junction.. energetic angel decided to run but i didnt follow.
so i walk and walk and saw yunfern and connie.haha
but afterall its o.
my only prob is -- i need meiyin to run with!! she can just make me run without being exhausted (:

thurs- nth o.O or i just couldnt rmb.

friday - good friday holiday.
nth much at home.
as usual i went for art class.

before class start.

i feel like some stalker. =.=

but her hair is damn soft + brownish + a lil serena type of hair.
so loveable!!

anyway, teacher showed me my past/old paintings

and it feels damn funny looking at them.haha

and i dont rmb drawing them before tho. haha

i miss the feeling of drawing this.

i think there are more tho.

today.

i went to bangunan sultan abdul samad for the sake of sej kerja kursus.

but i dint get much pics tho.
anyway, i met shir (:

its damn funny k?

we went to tht kl library like some jakuns =.=

and its freezing cold inside there.

and the toilet is damn freaky. super empty and just one word .. freaky!

anyway, we manage to get some sumber tho.

tourist centre

---

signing off.

night ppl. (:

some things shouldnt be said

2009-04-04T21:05:00.000+08:00

me with wood work (:

the weirdest combination ever.

as you can see, our class is damn slow.
now only we start our woodwork after
other ppl started soo long!
omg la.
and i am like so bad in woodwork
tht i dont think i could keep up with the class's speed..
but still i try.
even knowing tht maybe i will end up being the slowest
or like the past two years, scoring low marks for my woodwork.
i dont care anymore.
as long as i try my best.
i dont regret.
and yeah, maybe thts my limit for woodwork!!

enough abt my woodwork.
school was very usual.
not really, its like there's emergency every single day.
yeah with all kinds of hectic-ness plus chaos-ness.
all kinds of prob too.

but anyway,
honestly, i'm happy/satisfied with my current life.
esp. the previous week (:
smth i like happened :D

anyway some pics taken during the week:

retarded me + frame o.O

me with slide (:

we came down through the slide.

everyone was ok except shir.lol

her butt was stuck,haha

then joc say its okay cause next time easier to give birth.lol

it was during pe on thurs.

me, joc , ash went over to the primary playground opposite the swimming pool.

we wre like talking abt life + guys (:

ltr shir came over and she walk over tht swinging bridge.

poor shir mann. joc was like swingging tht bridge.haha

but at last she managed.

and yeah we eat + talk + take pic(joc)

its was quite an awesome time tho (:

friday.

in school, i was super nt feeling well honestly.

my stmach was a lil cramp

and i was feeling super dizzy since the moment i woke up in the morning.

so in school i was in a total lost + blur case.

and i slept during double sc.

i felt sry for mr liew tho.

he is like trying so hard to do F1 revision

with us but sadly,

half of the class was sleeping.

and i think more thn 3/4 wasnt listening.

anyway ltr during art class in the evening.

i was in total a emo state. but i managed to concentrate and finish painting

random shots of shir + jingher

lastly (:

i gtg.

ps: i say i miss school,but the truth abt missing school is

i miss you.

tears

2009-03-29T20:45:00.000+08:00

you ruined my life :/

so, again i know, i hadnt been blogging properly for like since forever..

anyway shall begin my story (:

somehow school was bck and i am

TOTALLY enjoying it!

especially the ''annoying shirley with my dream''

its a super stupid dream i had,

which causes her a lot of trouble in her school life lately.

*i am sry (:

but still its fun..haha..

whenever 'someone' appear..

she will show me her super pissed + annoyed face.lol

okay, i feel bad la..but still (:

*hoping my dream is a dejavu*

but i dont really want her ended up like tht either..

anyway, fri we have double science

whts in your mind when you hear this?

bored?

anyway last fri our class

had our enjoyable

science lesson.

honestly its the first time i did nt stone/sleep..

especially double sc!

its like usually damn nightmare.

but i guess why its nt sleepy is because..

we were learning abt reproduction

even if you're nt interested..

you cant never sleep

cause the whole class is laughing like

some lost control ppl

but sadly its only tht day,

cause mr. liew ken say he finish teaching abt tht ady.

haha.. i bet alot ppl is damn dissapointing.lol

but obviously sc lesson can never be only abt this topic.

and if it really happen...

o.O

anyway after talking, i feel much better now..

the idiotic shitty feeling

is fading (:

but i know it will be bck again tmr morning.

anyway, i gtg pack my bag + last minute doing hw..

(;

earth hour

2009-03-28T20:53:00.000+08:00

just do one thing:
switch off your lights (;
do enjoy the dark xD

kiss me through the phone.

2009-03-21T20:24:00.000+08:00

so school is gonna reopen in 1 day's time.

i admit.

i am looking forward for it (:

i had more thn 10 reason to go to school again.

obviously need to wake up like super early in the morning which causes me to

have nt enough sleep + causes all kinds of health problem(panda eyes + pimples)

o.O

and yet i am happy tht school life is bck =.=

all the rushness + kan cheongness + bitchyness + all usual school life stuffs.

but if you look at the good side..

you get to be in school again

so you get to crap all day long with your mates

and obviously you get to see 'ppl' you miss(:

i guess thts the best part abt school sometimes

and you get to walk around school and look for the 'faces'

tht you longed to see during the holidays.

and you get to pull your bestfriend and share your feelings

and ask them to teman you somewhere for some 'particular' reasons xD

i bet most of you dont get wht i mean but yeah..

thts how my school life goes this yr..

and i guess we ponteng-ed a lot nowadays o.O

according to shir.. good girls gone bad.

=.=''

lolness.

anyway, i still love blake lively's hair..

i think i said this before like more thn thousand times.

but still its just so nice!!

imagine..

after you tie your hair for the whole day in school,

and you're going out ltr..

obviously normal hair you need to comb and comb and comb
so tht you cant see the tied mark...

but if you had those hair like her..

wht you do...

you pull down the hair band..

then you just fluff your hair and comb with your fingers

and it stays there like somehair you blowdried..

and it looks damn sexy!!

and its natural + convenient + sexy!!

but still. i lerned to love my hair (: eventhough i still like her hair.lol

anyway, i trim/layer my fringe today & i like it..

i mean its better thn before

so i am satisfied :D

lastly, my so far drawing..

still a lot more to add.

---

i still miss you,

more thn i think.

and i am looking forward

to see you again.

all abt you.

2009-03-17T21:06:00.000+08:00

i like this :D

i love the hair too

just some random stuffs i would like to post.

---

i waited for you (:

i felt smth i never feel before.

2009-03-15T20:38:00.000+08:00

*edited.

i look tiny.
anyway my blog had been neglected for 1 wk..
seriously no time + so many things happen now.
and idk la.
but i am feeling good now.
so good tht i wanna make a proper post.
but cant be sure if it will be long
cause i lost words easily especially when i am chatting with ppl.
but still just gonna blog properly if nt my blog is seriously dying!

btw, i went to mid valley today with a friend + her mum.
obviously my parents are there
cause they wanna attend the education exibition to look for the course my friend planning to study which is = "beauty"
i dont exactly know how they call this kind of course but anyway its like APT things like tht .
she is f5 so yeah, need to plan for future (:
and she is very interested in these stuffs.
but again, which girl isnt?

so we walk around and there's like many other school/college/uni
and obviously they love to give you brochures .
and by walking one round only
i collected like a stack of them..like as thick as f3 kh text bk.
seriuosly + its frm art school, engineering to doctors, pharmarcy and some i dont even know.
and there's this cooking school too.
they baked there somemore (:
yupe and its as nice as secret recipe. or maybe nicer?
i am nt tht good at judging food.
but i gave her all the brochures since i dont really need them yet.
2 3/4 years to go!!
maybe quite short but still even PMR is still waiting for me.

but she is nt at all interested till...
APT..
so they (everyone except me)
sat down and ask abt all the courses and etc etc.
i wasnt really listening.so i was busy texting shir.haha.
then she told me some ppl can get license at 17!!!
how jealous!! drive your own car and go to where ever you like with
whoever you want!!!
omg..
i cant wait to do tht!!
and we talk abt 'too privated to be shared'

i wasnt paying any attention to the APT thing..
until...
i heard..
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manicure

so since its holi plus only 10 bucks.
i decided to do (:
plus its only half an hour.
why not rite?
plus i am super free + bored there.

so... my nails!!!
gold.haha.
out of all the colours
and the popular pinkish-purple.
i chosed GOLD!!
cause personally sometimes.. at times i dislike pink + purple.
especially for nails + eyeshadows. idk why la..
but it depends wht kind of purple and pink too.

close up

my friend's

obviously toilet!

i just love them!!

anyway, i had another thing to blog abt:

friday sc in lab.

after so long we had not go to the lab, yeah, i was much excited

cause even in lab you're nt listening,

you can chat or do smth else like chamwhore.lol

cause its too far frm teacher so its safe!

and it dont feel so tensed up there.

but surpsrisingly, teacher decided to use the i think is smart board tht day

and its damn nice!

lesson was far more interesting cause the female + male back ground voice super nice!

nicer than teacher's

and it just make the lessons better.
anyway the best part of sc tht day:

ashiqa who

look like ghost here.lol

me and car

zhiyan.waitong and the other 2 idk.

it looks like some ghost movie. haha.

me and joc

its blur.

anyway, gtg now.

hope this post its a much better one compare to the past few.

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(: typing while admiring my nail.lol

and i really do miss you even its only 2 days.

i wonder how am i suppose to go through the next

7 days?

and thinking abt you..

just make matters worst.

but i just cant get you out of my head.

and again the feeling is bothering me

a lot!!

i dreamt of you.

2009-03-07T20:36:00.000+08:00

*edited
i miss my hair!!
grow faster T__T

but i think my hair is really much longer compared to last yr dec.

anyway,

my stomach is feeling really terrible now..

i think i got the virus frm joc..

haih.. hope the pain faster go away!!

if nt i think i will really burst in to tears mann..

will update next time..

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the worst thing in the world is when i dont get to see you.

2009-03-02T20:21:00.000+08:00

if you are wondering why am i tht free to blog here at this time.
thst the current prob i am facing.

idk whts wrong with me anymore.
its like i cant concentrate in class.
i just cant sit quiet and listen and absorb wht the teachers are teaching.
and one same thing is bothering me,
my heart, my thoughts.
and i feel like i need to talk to my friends abt all these
cause they understands.
i am already missing them now.
and obviously you.

i really dont know whts so good or so grand abt you,
or smth in you tht caught my attention so badly.
like i live for you now,
like i do everything because of you.
and i even got emo or 'tears roll down'
because of your lil action?
why do i feel tht way?
because i really do love you?
maybe yes.
but what i wished for now is,
just look in to my eyes for once
and tell me you can never look away anymore.

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(:

maybe you already noticed me .

2009-03-01T20:53:00.000+08:00

hey ppl!
so i went to this again some reunion thingy and guess wht?
i got 70 bucks o.O
nt bad ?
its actually some idk wht reunion..
i went there with one reason = get money.lol
cause i mean i dont know many ppl there so wht can i do?
plus they always ask you : "wht college are you in?"
omg mann.. do i look tht old?

nvm, so i was busy smsing my friends to kill time . the food was good la btw,
there is smth bothering me a lot during the whole few hours i'm there.

when i turned around,
i saw someone who looks like you,
but obviously for me he will never be as hot as you,
as cute as you,
as adorable as you,
but i feeel smth,
feel tht its like looking at you in school,
the idk wht feeling whenever i look at you,
the heart tht runs so fast?
and i feel tht its you.. who are standing right in front of me,
and tht feeling is killing me
and when i realised it means tht i miss you,
i really cant believe
cause i have never been tht soft towards any one,
a guy?
i never miss someone as bad as missing you.
i never go to school because of a guy,
or to see someone,
but now its like,
its the first thing i think of when i wake up in the morning,
and everyday after school,
i just feel tht time past so slow,
and its so long for me to see you again tmr.
whts all this?
i really had no ans.
wht i know is.
your face is all the while in my head
and every single thing abt you tht i know.
is playing over again and again in my head
and i never dare to look into your eyes.
maybe cause you never look at me.

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:/ (i cant smile. nt now.)

i think you saw me.

2009-02-27T14:40:00.000+08:00

so i had been blogging straight for two days.
anyway i am gonna talk abt wht happen today .

so seriously i can say today is worst than the whole week.
as in so many things happen today!!
omg la.

and jo wasnt there.

and car : SORRY! i had a lot to tell you BUT i dont have the chance to. pls dont think tht i am hiding stuffs frm you k?

and my result was super ~~shytty~~
haih maybe it wasnt tht bad la. but i feel bad.
and tears roll down my cheeks today T_T
yeah. i was sad..
i just cant control my emotions.. i had been crying for 2 days straight o.O

and meiyin had a terrible tummy today.
hope she is better now.

and ashiqa: i hope you feel better..

and i pity charmaine..she cant run for 1 mth according to kat.

haih, so i was just wondering why is today tht bad? is nt even friday the 13th.
and i feel like everything is against me now. o.O

btw, really to ppl out there with probs : stay strong (:

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(:

When I first saw you
I knew nothing's like it used to be
Boy you have got to be the finest thing in history
The way I feel inside is just so hard to understand
I want your love
I need your touch
So much I think I'm in love

when it happens, what you do is RUN but what i do is STAY

2009-02-26T17:00:00.000+08:00

hey!

so my Form 3 first monthly exam is officially finished + over!
and so i am obviously here happily blogging.
and as you can see.
all my previous posts were like super short,
so i think i really wanna blog properly and make a longer post today but i dont know if i have enough things to say.

as you know my life's always usual

but recently or today or few days ago..
drama starts to be part of my life (if you get wht i mean)
so honestly a lot of things happen this week,

*first. i dont think i did well in my exam especially my science paper.
omg cause its honestly nt tht hard BUT wht happen? i lost like so much of marks TT

* second. its kinda private but yeah still its smth to be bothered by.

* third. another private stuff BUT its really really reallybothering me.

*fourth. i think i cant concentrate in class + i dont really like our timetable XD

*fifth. i am feeling very touched today. lol

--the rest i'm still thinking--

anyway, so i am actually like really need to appriciate my friends, i mean they are like seriuosly so good to me..
every single of them are like so unique (: and special in their own way without the need to try to act like someone like some ppl. and the most impaortant part :: they are always willing to cry with me !! and get wet under the rain because of me :D lol. i feel bad now but yeah its just so nice of her mann!! you know who you are.lol
i mean its really really hard to find friends who are willing to cry with you BUT i think i really found friends like tht.
and they never stop listening abt my complains (:

well other than been touched , i was bloody pissed today!
i really nt gonna talk abt it here.

yeah. i think its enough for today..all word's post XD

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(:

something happened for the first time,deep inside it was a rush, what a rush,

Cause the possibility that you would ever feel the same away about me,it’s just too much, just too much

Why do I keep running from the truth, all I ever think about is you

You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized, and I just got to know

Do you ever think, when you’re all alone,all that we can be, where this thing can go,

Am I crazy or falling in love, is it real or just another crush

Do you catch a breath, when I look at you, are you holding back, like the way I do,

Cause I’m tryin’, tryin’ to walk away

But I know this crush aint’ goin’ away, goin’ away

if you really really look into my eyes (:

2009-02-24T17:30:00.000+08:00

if it happens, i know,
i will be the happiest girl on earth!
BUT thts if the 'if' is real.
and i really hope it is.

*random*my hair is like longer now.
btw, i should cut down the crap now..
i had chn tmr!! T_T
and its one of my worst subject..
and worst of all. i am here updating a lil of my quite neglected blog.
but still i really gtg.
and study!! T.T

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(:

ps: i'm still thinking..of you.

valentine.

2009-02-15T10:18:00.000+08:00

happy valentine!
to those who're single or couples or wtv.
as long as to all ppl out there.
enjoy your day!!

so for me i didnt have much event this few days. or maybe just none at all.
but its kinda usual for singles to be like this on these special days.

btw, yday in art class.
i'm pretty proud of myself cause i finished drawing a shopaholic drawing (:
but as usual once i start painting.. i spoils the drawing cause i'm still nt tht good in painting i guess.

the whole.

the dramatic hair my teacher asked me to add.

actually i prefer the before one.

so i was pretty busy like anyone else now. exm's coming

things going on and yeah probs?

and i think i am alwasy rushing now

adn ppl had been asking me to update more often.

but sry, really cant find time T__T

but will still try.

anyway, i was thinking abt wht i want to buy now.

so i was listing listing and i think its like an never ending list.

so i am only listing

the top things tht i want desperately:

- shades

- new purse

- heels

- jeans

- dress!!

- bag

- flats

- bikini

- sport shoes

- face shop's lip balm

***

i think i should stop if nt i'll be listing everything as 'wanting desperately' o. O
btw, gtg out now

it remains

2009-02-09T12:42:00.000+08:00

a pic frm nicholas party.
so i was really busy this few days.

attended joc and nicholas's party.

then gt reunion yday with mum's friend.

so i've nt enough sleep,nt enought time and nt enough rest!!

btw, CNY is like gonna officially over tonight T.T

kinda sad.

and i gtg continue my hw..

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shades

2009-02-07T14:27:00.000+08:00

i just need a pair of shades. honestly i dont mind having more TT
desperate.

gorgeous

2009-02-07T13:24:00.000+08:00

been jakuns in her house.

so i have not been blogging for 1 wk plus.
nt counted as long compared to the previous few times.
and thx to CNY and outings and parties and hws --i'm already enough busy and stressed o.o

but still, school for me was always usual + kinda monotonous at times without dramas like others but i do learn to like all this.
but obviously school can never cut out gossips..
and i'm still glad tht i'm usually up to date with 'news' (:
and they're partly around me. =.<

anyway i had been talking to shirley a lot nowadys (maybe cause we're near in class)
and she do make me lmao.
and she's nt as innocent as you thought. trust me. she's more than tht.
and nearly the whole week our gang had been talking abt xxx during lunch and seriuosly you can get choke at times especially to carissa's 'stories'

btw, pics frm tht day drama pracs.
i dint get to go to carissa's party the day before TT

carissa. eugene

the leader

shirley

me. jamie. joc

'batus'

our inside joke (:

the group.
i'm nt in.

i dint get any pic frm joc's
party yday.
btw, carissa looks good in contacts-maybe it makes her eyes bigger?lol

gtg.

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Penang

2009-01-31T18:56:00.000+08:00

a good start?

can i leave the rest to the pics?

the hotel

room

dad XD

lobby.

Gurney Drive!

of course penang food:

Kek Lok Si

Wat smth(i cant rmb)

breakfast

damn cute rite?

Bukit Bendera

Snake Temple

the bridge:

leaving penang.

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quick, short

2009-01-30T18:22:00.000+08:00

i'm back!!
first thing i did was--online + blog +facebk.
as usual, i took quite a nomber of pics and of course i'm gonna post it but nt now.
wht i need badly now is a good sleep.
so will update pics and penang stories tmr (:
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(:

one step nearer.

2009-01-27T21:12:00.000+08:00

so its comfirm tht i'm leaving for penang tmr o.o
kinda look forward to step out of the house XD
but will be going with grandma (;
but my CNY thsi yr was pretty-no-surprise kind.
like just some holiday with a little tradition thing going on.
cause my family memang like stay alone(with out grandparents) so its like a lil less tradition. [if you get wht i mean].
so its like nth much we do for CNY, usually balik kpg + go for holi. lol rite?
but we still get 'ang pau'
D: thinking abt i'm going for holi tmr, idk why i still feel bored now.
as in i dk wht to do online. or maybe i just need to cut down my online time which gradually increase since this yr.
still. i gtg.
pack luggage..

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(:
tuning into: lady gaga- paparazzi

CNY!

2009-01-26T16:56:00.000+08:00

so today is like the first day of CNY!
i dont actually balik kpg tho. so wht i do is -- buffet!
i shall start my story.
so i was forced to wake up at 9 today cause my mum kind of like 'first day dont sleep so late and etc usual naggings.'
so i had been a super 'good girl'. i followed wht my mum say.
so, got dress up, put lil lip gloss/facial things and prepare everything then off we went to bkt tinggi to fetch mum's friend and headed to blue wave.
i actually enjoy eating there cause the food usually dont disappoint me even if it isnt tht nice or speecial or wtv.

the first thing XD

stairs make me feel grand.

i love the reflection.

before today's pic.

yady(25/1/09)

CNY eve. we went to this FGS thing but morning its like the light isnt light on obviously but its clearer if you take pics and less crowded.

so fat.

damn real rite?

cow.

raining.

today's buffet

the lamb steak is super nice!

felt so red-ish.

deserts rocks!

the end.

she(the one besideme,mum's friend)

super tall T__T

gtg. i started to feel hungry.

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tuning into: lady gaga-poker face

eve.

2009-01-25T10:14:00.000+08:00

so, i think the date on top is always wrong. and same for the time so kindly ignore it.
btw, i just had this feeling tht,
form 3 life is very terrible? it is nt terrible but it just kind of took away your personal-extra time, like those time tht i use to blog, stone(nt my hobby,it just comes at times), and crap with friends or some other enjoyable thigs tht i do during this free period of my day. its like all GONE when i reach form 3.
it doesnt mean tht i read or study ar wtv, as you know, i am so nt the rajin type like shirley. lol. but i just tend to have nt enough time, but if you ask me to actually list down wht i do..its definately nt more than 10 and i can feel tht i had nt enough sleep every day. haih. bad for health and eyes.

but i will try to update more so tht my blog will stop dying (:

chn class.

anyway, lets think happy!..

CNY is tmr!

maybe some ppl isnt tht looking forward but still its holiday! better than in school rite?

nt tht school isnt nice but its just one week break :D

so.

so red!

yday at art, kids were doing this cow thing.

but this is wht i do. maybe i just feel too old for 'tht'

i gtg aeon bkt tinggi soon

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ltr (:

2009-01-23T17:02:00.000+08:00

i had tons of things to say but i gtg first if nt i will be really late for art class o.o
and its nt a good thing.
so update ltr (: